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    'Nay, I have done; you get no more of me:

    And I am glad, yea glad with all my heart,

    That thus so clearly I myself am free.'


    Margaret shut herself up in her own room, after she had quitted
    Mrs. Thornton. She began to walk backwards and forwards, in her
    old habitual way of showing agitation; but, then, remembering
    that in that slightly-built house every step was heard from one
    room to another, she sate down until she heard Mrs. Thornton go
    safely out of the house. She forced herself to recollect all the
    conversation that had passed between them; speech by speech, she
    compelled her memory to go through with it. At the end, she rose
    up, and said to herself, in a melancholy tone:

    'At any rate, her words do not touch me; they fall off from me;
    for I am innocent of all the motives she attributes to me. But
    still, it is hard to think that any one--any woman--can believe
    all this of another so easily. It is hard and sad. Where I have
    done wrong, she does not accuse me--she does not know. He never
    told her: I might have known he would not!'

    She lifted up her head, as if she took pride in any delicacy of
    feeling which Mr. Thornton had shown. Then, as a new thought came
    across her, she pressed her hands tightly together.

    'He, too, must take poor Frederick for some lover.' (She blushed
    as the word passed through her mind.) 'I see it now. It is not
    merely that he knows of my falsehood, but he believes that some
    one else cares for me; and that I----Oh dear!--oh dear! What
    shall I do? What do I mean? Why do I care what he thinks, beyond
    the mere loss of his good opinion as regards my telling the truth
    or not? I cannot tell. But I am very miserable! Oh, how unhappy
    this last year has been! I have passed out of childhood into old
    age. I have had no youth--no womanhood; the hopes of womanhood
    have closed for me--for I shall never marry; and I anticipate
    cares and sorrows just as if I were an old woman, and with the
    same fearful spirit. I am weary of this continual call upon me
    for strength. I could bear up for papa; because that is a
    natural, pious duty. And I think I could bear up against--at any
    rate, I could have the energy to resent, Mrs. Thornton's unjust,
    impertinent suspicions. But it is hard to feel how completely he
    must misunderstand me. What has happened to make me so morbid
    to-day? I do not know. I only know I cannot help it. I must give
    way sometimes. No, I will not, though,' said she, springing to
    her feet. 'I will not--I ~will~ not think of myself and my own
    position. I won't examine into my own feelings. It would be of no
    use now. Some time, if I live to be an old woman, I may sit over
    the fire, and, looking into the embers, see the life that might
    have been.'

    All this time, she was hastily putting on her things to go out,
    only stopping from time to time to wipe her eyes, with an
    impatience of gesture at the tears that would come, in spite of
    all her bravery.

    'I dare say, there's many a woman makes as sad a mistake as I
    have done, and only finds it out too late. And how proudly and
    impertinently I spoke to him that day! But I did not know then.
    It has come upon me little by little, and I don't know where it
    began. Now I won't give way. I shall find it difficult to behave
    in the same way to him, with this miserable consciousness upon
    me; but I will be very calm and very quiet, and say very little.
    But, to be sure, I may not see him; he keeps out of our way
    evidently. That would be worse than all. And yet no wonder that
    he avoids me, believing what he must about me.'

    She went out, going rapidly towards the country, and trying to
    drown reflection by swiftness of motion.

    As she stood on the door-step, at her return, her father came up:

    'Good girl!' said he. 'You've been to Mrs. Boucher's. I was just
    meaning to go there, if I had time, before dinner.'

    'No, papa; I have not,' said Margaret, reddening. 'I never
    thought about her. But I will go directly after dinner; I will go
    while you are taking your nap.

    Accordingly Margaret went. Mrs. Boucher was very ill; really
    ill--not merely ailing. The kind and sensible neighbour, who had
    come in the other day, seemed to have taken charge of everything.
    Some of the children were gone to the neighbours. Mary Higgins
    had come for the three youngest at dinner-time; and since then
    Nicholas had gone for the doctor. He had not come as yet; Mrs.
    Boucher was dying; and there was nothing to do but to wait.
    Margaret thought that she should like to know his opinion, and
    that she could not do better than go and see the Higginses in the
    meantime. She might then possibly hear whether Nicholas had been
    able to make his application to Mr. Thornton.

    She found Nicholas busily engaged in making a penny spin on the
    dresser, for the amusement of three little children, who were
    clinging to him in a fearless manner. He, as well as they, was
    smiling at a good long spin; and Margaret thought, that the happy
    look of interest in his occupation was a good sign. When the
    penny stopped spinning, 'lile Johnnie' began to cry.

    'Come to me,' said Margaret, taking him off the dresser, and
    holding him in her arms; she held her watch to his ear, while she
    asked Nicholas if he had seen Mr. Thornton.

    The look on his face changed instantly.

    'Ay!' said he. 'I've seen and heerd too much on him.'

    'He refused you, then?' said Margaret, sorrowfully.

    'To be sure. I knew he'd do it all long. It's no good expecting
    marcy at the hands o' them measters. Yo're a stranger and a
    foreigner, and aren't likely to know their ways; but I knowed

    'I am sorry I asked you. Was he angry? He did not speak to you as
    Hamper did, did he?'

    'He weren't o'er-civil!' said Nicholas, spinning the penny again,
    as much for his own amusement as for that of the children. 'Never
    yo' fret, I'm only where I was. I'll go on tramp to-morrow. I
    gave him as good as I got. I telled him, I'd not that good
    opinion on him that I'd ha' come a second time of mysel'; but
    yo'd advised me for to come, and I were beholden to yo'.'

    'You told him I sent you?'

    'I dunno' if I ca'd yo' by your name. I dunnot think I did. I
    said, a woman who knew no better had advised me for to come and
    see if there was a soft place in his heart.'

    'And he--?' asked Margaret.

    'Said I were to tell yo' to mind yo'r own business.--That's the
    longest spin yet, my lads.--And them's civil words to what he
    used to me. But ne'er mind. We're but where we was; and I'll
    break stones on th' road afore I let these little uns clem.'

    Margaret put the struggling Johnnie out of her arms, back into
    his former place on the dresser.

    'I am sorry I asked you to go to Mr. Thornton's. I am
    disappointed in him.'

    There was a slight noise behind her. Both she and Nicholas turned
    round at the same moment, and there stood Mr. Thornton, with a
    look of displeased surprise upon his face. Obeying her swift
    impulse, Margaret passed out before him, saying not a word, only
    bowing low to hide the sudden paleness that she felt had come
    over her face. He bent equally low in return, and then closed the
    door after her. As she hurried to Mrs. Boucher's, she heard the
    clang, and it seemed to fill up the measure of her mortification.
    He too was annoyed to find her there. He had tenderness in his
    heart--'a soft place,' as Nicholas Higgins called it; but he had
    some pride in concealing it; he kept it very sacred and safe, and
    was jealous of every circumstance that tried to gain admission.
    But if he dreaded exposure of his tenderness, he was equally
    desirous that all men should recognise his justice; and he felt
    that he had been unjust, in giving so scornful a hearing to any
    one who had waited, with humble patience, for five hours, to
    speak to him. That the man had spoken saucily to him when he had
    the opportunity, was nothing to Mr. Thornton. He rather liked him
    for it; and he was conscious of his own irritability of temper at
    the time, which probably made them both quits. It was the five
    hours of waiting that struck Mr. Thornton. He had not five hours
    to spare himself; but one hour--two hours, of his hard
    penetrating intellectual, as well as bodily labour, did he give
    up to going about collecting evidence as to the truth of
    Higgins's story, the nature of his character, the tenor of his
    life. He tried not to be, but was convinced that all that Higgins
    had said. was true. And then the conviction went in, as if by
    some spell, and touched the latent tenderness of his heart; the
    patience of the man, the simple generosity of the motive (for he
    had learnt about the quarrel between Boucher and Higgins), made
    him forget entirely the mere reasonings of justice, and overleap
    them by a diviner instinct. He came to tell Higgins he would give
    him work; and he was more annoyed to find Margaret there than by
    hearing her last words, for then he understood that she was the
    woman who had urged Higgins to come to him; and he dreaded the
    admission of any thought of her, as a motive to what he was doing
    solely because it was right.

    'So that was the lady you spoke of as a woman?' said he
    indignantly to Higgins. 'You might have told me who she was.

    'And then, maybe, yo'd ha' spoken of her more civil than yo' did;
    yo'd getten a mother who might ha' kept yo'r tongue in check when
    yo' were talking o' women being at the root o' all the plagues.'

    'Of course you told that to Miss Hale?'

    'In coorse I did. Leastways, I reckon I did. I telled her she
    weren't to meddle again in aught that concerned yo'.'

    'Whose children are those--yours?' Mr. Thornton had a pretty good
    notion whose they were, from what he had heard; but he felt
    awkward in turning the conversation round from this unpromising

    'They're not mine, and they are mine.'

    'They are the children you spoke of to me this morning?'

    'When yo' said,' replied Higgins, turning round, with
    ill-smothered fierceness, 'that my story might be true or might
    not, bur it were a very unlikely one. Measter, I've not

    Mr. Thornton was silent for a moment; then he said: 'No more have
    I. I remember what I said. I spoke to you about those children in
    a way I had no business to do. I did not believe you. I could not
    have taken care of another man's children myself, if he had acted
    towards me as I hear Boucher did towards you. But I know now that
    you spoke truth. I beg your pardon.'

    Higgins did not turn round, or immediately respond to this. But
    when he did speak, it was in a softened tone, although the words
    were gruff enough.

    'Yo've no business to go prying into what happened between
    Boucher and me. He's dead, and I'm sorry. That's enough.'

    'So it is. Will you take work with me? That's what I came to

    Higgins's obstinacy wavered, recovered strength, and stood firm.
    He would not speak. Mr. Thornton would not ask again. Higgins's
    eye fell on the children.

    'Yo've called me impudent, and a liar, and a mischief-maker, and
    yo' might ha' said wi' some truth, as I were now and then given
    to drink. An' I ha' called you a tyrant, an' an oud bull-dog, and
    a hard, cruel master; that's where it stands. But for th'
    childer. Measter, do yo' think we can e'er get on together?'

    'Well!' said Mr. Thornton, half-laughing, 'it was not my proposal
    that we should go together. But there's one comfort, on your own
    showing. We neither of us can think much worse of the other than
    we do now.'

    'That's true,' said Higgins, reflectively. 'I've been thinking,
    ever sin' I saw you, what a marcy it were yo' did na take me on,
    for that I ne'er saw a man whom I could less abide. But that's
    maybe been a hasty judgment; and work's work to such as me. So,
    measter, I'll come; and what's more, I thank yo'; and that's a
    deal fro' me,' said he, more frankly, suddenly turning round and
    facing Mr. Thornton fully for the first time.

    'And this is a deal from me,' said Mr. Thornton, giving Higgins's
    hand a good grip. 'Now mind you come sharp to your time,'
    continued he, resuming the master. 'I'll have no laggards at my
    mill. What fines we have, we keep pretty sharply. And the first
    time I catch you making mischief, off you go. So now you know
    where you are.'

    'Yo' spoke of my wisdom this morning. I reckon I may bring it wi'
    me; or would yo' rayther have me 'bout my brains?'

    "Bout your brains if you use them for meddling with my business;
    with your brains if you can keep them to your own.'

    'I shall need a deal o' brains to settle where my business ends
    and yo'rs begins.'

    'Your business has not begun yet, and mine stands still for me.
    So good afternoon.'

    Just before Mr. Thornton came up to Mrs. Boucher's door, Margaret
    came out of it. She did not see him; and he followed her for
    several yards, admiring her light and easy walk, and her tall and
    graceful figure. But, suddenly, this simple emotion of pleasure
    was tainted, poisoned by jealousy. He wished to overtake her, and
    speak to her, to see how she would receive him, now she must know
    he was aware of some other attachment. He wished too, but of this
    wish he was rather ashamed, that she should know that he had
    justified her wisdom in sending Higgins to him to ask for work;
    and had repented him of his morning's decision. He came up to
    her. She started.

    'Allow me to say, Miss Hale, that you were rather premature in
    expressing your disappointment. I have taken Higgins on.'

    'I am glad of it,' said she, coldly.

    'He tells me, he repeated to you, what I said this morning
    about--' Mr. Thornton hesitated. Margaret took it up:

    'About women not meddling. You had a perfect right to express
    your opinion, which was a very correct one, I have no doubt.
    But,' she went on a little more eagerly, 'Higgins did not quite
    tell you the exact truth.' The word 'truth,' reminded her of her
    own untruth, and she stopped short, feeling exceedingly

    Mr. Thornton at first was puzzled to account for her silence; and
    then he remembered the lie she had told, and all that was
    foregone. 'The exact truth!' said he. 'Very few people do speak
    the exact truth. I have given up hoping for it. Miss Hale, have
    you no explanation to give me? You must perceive what I cannot
    but think.'

    Margaret was silent. She was wondering whether an explanation of
    any kind would be consistent with her loyalty to Frederick.

    'Nay,' said he, 'I will ask no farther. I may be putting
    temptation in your way. At present, believe me, your secret is
    safe with me. But you run great risks, allow me to say, in being
    so indiscreet. I am now only speaking as a friend of your
    father's: if I had any other thought or hope, of course that is
    at an end. I am quite disinterested.'

    'I am aware of that,' said Margaret, forcing herself to speak in
    an indifferent, careless way. 'I am aware of what I must appear
    to you, but the secret is another person's, and I cannot explain
    it without doing him harm.'

    'I have not the slightest wish to pry into the gentleman's
    secrets,' he said, with growing anger. 'My own interest in you
    is--simply that of a friend. You may not believe me, Miss Hale,
    but it is--in spite of the persecution I'm afraid I threatened
    you with at one time--but that is all given up; all passed away.
    You believe me, Miss Hale?'

    'Yes,' said Margaret, quietly and sadly.

    'Then, really, I don't see any occasion for us to go on walking
    together. I thought, perhaps you might have had something to say,
    but I see we are nothing to each other. If you're quite
    convinced, that any foolish passion on my part is entirely over,
    I will wish you good afternoon.' He walked off very hastily.

    'What can he mean?' thought Margaret,--'what could he mean by
    speaking so, as if I were always thinking that he cared for me,
    when I know he does not; he cannot. His mother will have said all
    those cruel things about me to him. But I won't care for him. I
    surely am mistress enough of myself to control this wild,
    strange, miserable feeling, which tempted me even to betray my
    own dear Frederick, so that I might but regain his good
    opinion--the good opinion of a man who takes such pains to tell
    me that I am nothing to him. Come poor little heart! be cheery
    and brave. We'll be a great deal to one another, if we are thrown
    off and left desolate.'

    Her father was almost startled by her merriment this afternoon.
    She talked incessantly, and forced her natural humour to an
    unusual pitch; and if there was a tinge of bitterness in much of
    what she said; if her accounts of the old Harley Street set were
    a little sarcastic, her father could not bear to check her, as he
    would have done at another time--for he was glad to see her shake
    off her cares. In the middle of the evening, she was called down
    to speak to Mary Higgins; and when she came back, Mr. Hale
    imagined that he saw traces of tears on her cheeks. But that
    could not be, for she brought good news--that Higgins had got
    work at Mr. Thornton's mill. Her spirits were damped, at any
    rate, and she found it very difficult to go on talking at all,
    much more in the wild way that she had done. For some days her
    spirits varied strangely; and her father was beginning to be
    anxious about her, when news arrived from one or two quarters
    that promised some change and variety for her. Mr. Hale received
    a letter from Mr. Bell, in which that gentleman volunteered a
    visit to them; and Mr. Hale imagined that the promised society of
    his old Oxford friend would give as agreeable a turn to
    Margaret's ideas as it did to his own. Margaret tried to take an
    interest in what pleased her father; but she was too languid to
    care about any Mr. Bell, even though he were twenty times her
    godfather. She was more roused by a letter from Edith, full of
    sympathy about her aunt's death; full of details about herself,
    her husband, and child; and at the end saying, that as the
    climate did not suit, the baby, and as Mrs. Shaw was talking of
    returning to England, she thought it probable that Captain Lennox
    might sell out, and that they might all go and live again in the
    old Harley Street house; which, however, would seem very
    incomplete with-out Margaret. Margaret yearned after that old
    house, and the placid tranquillity of that old well-ordered,
    monotonous life. She had found it occasionally tiresome while it
    lasted; but since then she had been buffeted about, and felt so
    exhausted by this recent struggle with herself, that she thought
    that even stagnation would be a rest and a refreshment. So she
    began to look towards a long visit to the Lennoxes, on their
    return to England, as to a point--no, not of hope--but of
    leisure, in which she could regain her power and command over
    herself. At present it seemed to her as if all subjects tended
    towards Mr. Thornton; as if she could not for-get him with all
    her endeavours. If she went to see the Higginses, she heard of
    him there; her father had resumed their readings together, and
    quoted his opinions perpetually; even Mr. Bell's visit brought
    his tenant's name upon the tapis; for he wrote word that he
    believed he must be occupied some great part of his time with Mr.
    Thornton, as a new lease was in preparation, and the terms of it
    must be agreed upon.
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