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    CHAPTER 33


    The changes of a fevered room are slow and fluctuating; but the
    changes of the fevered world are rapid and irrevocable.

    It was Little Dorrit's lot to wait upon both kinds of change. The
    Marshalsea walls, during a portion of every day, again embraced her
    in their shadows as their child, while she thought for Clennam,
    worked for him, watched him, and only left him, still to devote her
    utmost love and care to him. Her part in the life outside the gate
    urged its pressing claims upon her too, and her patience untiringly
    responded to them. Here was Fanny, proud, fitful, whimsical,
    further advanced in that disqualified state for going into society
    which had so much fretted her on the evening of the tortoise-shell
    knife, resolved always to want comfort, resolved not to be
    comforted, resolved to be deeply wronged, and resolved that nobody
    should have the audacity to think her so. Here was her brother, a
    weak, proud, tipsy, young old man, shaking from head to foot,
    talking as indistinctly as if some of the money he plumed himself
    upon had got into his mouth and couldn't be got out, unable to walk
    alone in any act of his life, and patronising the sister whom he
    selfishly loved (he always had that negative merit, ill-starred and
    ill-launched Tip!) because he suffered her to lead him. Here was
    Mrs Merdle in gauzy mourning--the original cap whereof had possibly
    been rent to pieces in a fit of grief, but had certainly yielded to
    a highly becoming article from the Parisian market--warring with
    Fanny foot to foot, and breasting her with her desolate bosom every
    hour in the day. Here was poor Mr Sparkler, not knowing how to
    keep the peace between them, but humbly inclining to the opinion
    that they could do no better than agree that they were both
    remarkably fine women, and that there was no nonsense about either
    of them--for which gentle recommendation they united in falling
    upon him frightfully. Then, too, here was Mrs General, got home
    from foreign parts, sending a Prune and a Prism by post every other
    day, demanding a new Testimonial by way of recommendation to some
    vacant appointment or other. Of which remarkable gentlewoman it
    may be finally observed, that there surely never was a gentlewoman
    of whose transcendent fitness for any vacant appointment on the
    face of this earth, so many people were (as the warmth of her
    Testimonials evinced) so perfectly satisfied--or who was so very
    unfortunate in having a large circle of ardent and distinguished
    admirers, who never themselves happened to want her in any

    On the first crash of the eminent Mr Merdle's decease, many
    important persons had been unable to determine whether they should
    cut Mrs Merdle, or comfort her. As it seemed, however, essential
    to the strength of their own case that they should admit her to
    have been cruelly deceived, they graciously made the admission, and
    continued to know her. It followed that Mrs Merdle, as a woman of
    fashion and good breeding who had been sacrificed to the wiles of
    a vulgar barbarian (for Mr Merdle was found out from the crown of
    his head to the sole of his foot, the moment he was found out in
    his pocket), must be actively championed by her order for her
    order's sake. She returned this fealty by causing it to be
    understood that she was even more incensed against the felonious
    shade of the deceased than anybody else was; thus, on the whole,
    she came out of her furnace like a wise woman, and did exceedingly

    Mr Sparkler's lordship was fortunately one of those shelves on
    which a gentleman is considered to be put away for life, unless
    there should be reasons for hoisting him up with the Barnacle crane
    to a more lucrative height. That patriotic servant accordingly
    stuck to his colours (the Standard of four Quarterings), and was a
    perfect Nelson in respect of nailing them to the mast. On the
    profits of his intrepidity, Mrs Sparkler and Mrs Merdle, inhabiting
    different floors of the genteel little temple of inconvenience to
    which the smell of the day before yesterday's soup and coach-horses
    was as constant as Death to man, arrayed themselves to fight it out
    in the lists of Society, sworn rivals. And Little Dorrit, seeing
    all these things as they developed themselves, could not but
    wonder, anxiously, into what back corner of the genteel
    establishment Fanny's children would be poked by-and-by, and who
    would take care of those unborn little victims.

    Arthur being far too ill to be spoken with on subjects of emotion
    or anxiety, and his recovery greatly depending on the repose into
    which his weakness could be hushed, Little Dorrit's sole reliance
    during this heavy period was on Mr Meagles. He was still abroad;
    but she had written to him through his daughter, immediately after
    first seeing Arthur in the Marshalsea and since, confiding her
    uneasiness to him on the points on which she was most anxious, but
    especially on one. To that one, the continued absence of Mr
    Meagles abroad, instead of his comforting presence in the
    Marshalsea, was referable.

    Without disclosing the precise nature of the documents that had
    fallen into Rigaud's hands, Little Dorrit had confided the general
    outline of that story to Mr Meagles, to whom she had also recounted
    his fate. The old cautious habits of the scales and scoop at once
    showed Mr Meagles the importance of recovering the original papers;
    wherefore he wrote back to Little Dorrit, strongly confirming her
    in the solicitude she expressed on that head, and adding that he
    would not come over to England 'without making some attempt to
    trace them out.'

    By this time Mr Henry Gowan had made up his mind that it would be
    agreeable to him not to know the Meagleses. He was so considerate
    as to lay no injunctions on his wife in that particular; but he
    mentioned to Mr Meagles that personally they did not appear to him
    to get on together, and that he thought it would be a good thing
    if--politely, and without any scene, or anything of that sort--they
    agreed that they were the best fellows in the world, but were best
    apart. Poor Mr Meagles, who was already sensible that he did not
    advance his daughter's happiness by being constantly slighted in
    her presence, said 'Good, Henry! You are my Pet's husband; you
    have displaced me, in the course of nature; if you wish it, good!'
    This arrangement involved the contingent advantage, which perhaps
    Henry Gowan had not foreseen, that both Mr and Mrs Meagles were
    more liberal than before to their daughter, when their
    communication was only with her and her young child: and that his
    high spirit found itself better provided with money, without being
    under the degrading necessity of knowing whence it came.

    Mr Meagles, at such a period, naturally seized an occupation with
    great ardour. He knew from his daughter the various towns which
    Rigaud had been haunting, and the various hotels at which he had
    been living for some time back. The occupation he set himself was
    to visit these with all discretion and speed, and, in the event of
    finding anywhere that he had left a bill unpaid, and a box or
    parcel behind, to pay such bill, and bring away such box or parcel.

    With no other attendant than Mother, Mr Meagles went upon his
    pilgrimage, and encountered a number of adventures. Not the least
    of his difficulties was, that he never knew what was said to him,
    and that he pursued his inquiries among people who never knew what
    he said to them. Still, with an unshaken confidence that the
    English tongue was somehow the mother tongue of the whole world,
    only the people were too stupid to know it, Mr Meagles harangued
    innkeepers in the most voluble manner, entered into loud
    explanations of the most complicated sort, and utterly renounced
    replies in the native language of the respondents, on the ground
    that they were 'all bosh.' Sometimes interpreters were called in;
    whom Mr Meagles addressed in such idiomatic terms of speech, as
    instantly to extinguish and shut up--which made the matter worse.
    On a balance of the account, however, it may be doubted whether he
    lost much; for, although he found no property, he found so many
    debts and various associations of discredit with the proper name,
    which was the only word he made intelligible, that he was almost
    everywhere overwhelmed with injurious accusations. On no fewer
    than four occasions the police were called in to receive
    denunciations of Mr Meagles as a Knight of Industry, a good-for-
    nothing, and a thief, all of which opprobrious language he bore
    with the best temper (having no idea what it meant), and was in the
    most ignominious manner escorted to steam-boats and public
    carriages, to be got rid of, talking all the while, like a cheerful
    and fluent Briton as he was, with Mother under his arm.

    But, in his own tongue, and in his own head, Mr Meagles was a
    clear, shrewd, persevering man. When he had 'worked round,' as he
    called it, to Paris in his pilgrimage, and had wholly failed in it
    so far, he was not disheartened. 'The nearer to England I follow
    him, you see, Mother,' argued Mr Meagles, 'the nearer I am likely
    to come to the papers, whether they turn up or no. Because it is
    only reasonable to conclude that he would deposit them somewhere
    where they would be safe from people over in England, and where
    they would yet be accessible to himself, don't you see?'

    At Paris Mr Meagles found a letter from Little Dorrit, lying
    waiting for him; in which she mentioned that she had been able to
    talk for a minute or two with Mr Clennam about this man who was no
    more; and that when she told Mr Clennam that his friend Mr Meagles,
    who was on his way to see him, had an interest in ascertaining
    something about the man if he could, he had asked her to tell Mr
    Meagles that he had been known to Miss Wade, then living in such a
    street at Calais. 'Oho!' said Mr Meagles.

    As soon afterwards as might be in those Diligence days, Mr Meagles
    rang the cracked bell at the cracked gate, and it jarred open, and
    the peasant-woman stood in the dark doorway, saying, 'Ice-say!
    Seer! Who?' In acknowledgment of whose address, Mr Meagles
    murmured to himself that there was some sense about these Calais
    people, who really did know something of what you and themselves
    were up to; and returned, 'Miss Wade, my dear.' He was then shown
    into the presence of Miss Wade.

    'It's some time since we met,' said Mr Meagles, clearing his
    throat; 'I hope you have been pretty well, Miss Wade?'

    Without hoping that he or anybody else had been pretty well, Miss
    Wade asked him to what she was indebted for the honour of seeing
    him again? Mr Meagles, in the meanwhile, glanced all round the
    room without observing anything in the shape of a box.

    'Why, the truth is, Miss Wade,' said Mr Meagles, in a comfortable,
    managing, not to say coaxing voice, 'it is possible that you may be
    able to throw a light upon a little something that is at present
    dark. Any unpleasant bygones between us are bygones, I hope.
    Can't be helped now. You recollect my daughter? Time changes so!
    A mother!'

    In his innocence, Mr Meagles could not have struck a worse key-
    note. He paused for any expression of interest, but paused in

    'That is not the subject you wished to enter on?' she said, after
    a cold silence.

    'No, no,' returned Mr Meagles. 'No. I thought your good nature

    'I thought you knew,' she interrupted, with a smile, 'that my good
    nature is not to be calculated upon?'

    'Don't say so,' said Mr Meagles; 'you do yourself an injustice.
    However, to come to the point.' For he was sensible of having
    gained nothing by approaching it in a roundabout way. 'I have
    heard from my friend Clennam, who, you will be sorry to hear, has
    been and still is very ill--'

    He paused again, and again she was silent.

    '--that you had some knowledge of one Blandois, lately killed in
    London by a violent accident. Now, don't mistake me! I know it
    was a slight knowledge,' said Mr Meagles, dexterously forestalling
    an angry interruption which he saw about to break. 'I am fully
    aware of that. It was a slight knowledge, I know. But the
    question is,' Mr Meagles's voice here became comfortable again,
    'did he, on his way to England last time, leave a box of papers, or
    a bundle of papers, or some papers or other in some receptacle or
    other--any papers--with you: begging you to allow him to leave them
    here for a short time, until he wanted them?'

    'The question is?' she repeated. 'Whose question is?'

    'Mine,' said Mr Meagles. 'And not only mine but Clennam's
    question, and other people's question. Now, I am sure,' continued
    Mr Meagles, whose heart was overflowing with Pet, 'that you can't
    have any unkind feeling towards my daughter; it's impossible.
    Well! It's her question, too; being one in which a particular
    friend of hers is nearly interested. So here I am, frankly to say
    that is the question, and to ask, Now, did he?'

    'Upon my word,' she returned, 'I seem to be a mark for everybody
    who knew anything of a man I once in my life hired, and paid, and
    dismissed, to aim their questions at!'

    'Now, don't,' remonstrated Mr Meagles, 'don't! Don't take offence,
    because it's the plainest question in the world, and might be asked
    of any one. The documents I refer to were not his own, were
    wrongfully obtained, might at some time or other be troublesome to
    an innocent person to have in keeping, and are sought by the people
    to whom they really belong. He passed through Calais going to
    London, and there were reasons why he should not take them with him
    then, why he should wish to be able to put his hand upon them
    readily, and why he should distrust leaving them with people of his
    own sort. Did he leave them here? I declare if I knew how to
    avoid giving you offence, I would take any pains to do it. I put
    the question personally, but there's nothing personal in it. I
    might put it to any one; I have put it already to many people. Did
    he leave them here? Did he leave anything here?'


    'Then unfortunately, Miss Wade, you know nothing about them?'

    'I know nothing about them. I have now answered your unaccountable
    question. He did not leave them here, and I know nothing about

    'There!' said Mr Meagles rising. 'I am sorry for it; that's over;
    and I hope there is not much harm done.--Tattycoram well, Miss

    'Harriet well? O yes!'

    'I have put my foot in it again,' said Mr Meagles, thus corrected.
    'I can't keep my foot out of it here, it seems. Perhaps, if I had
    thought twice about it, I might never have given her the jingling
    name. But, when one means to be good-natured and sportive with
    young people, one doesn't think twice. Her old friend leaves a
    kind word for her, Miss Wade, if you should think proper to deliver

    She said nothing as to that; and Mr Meagles, taking his honest face
    out of the dull room, where it shone like a sun, took it to the
    Hotel where he had left Mrs Meagles, and where he made the Report:
    'Beaten, Mother; no effects!' He took it next to the London Steam
    Packet, which sailed in the night; and next to the Marshalsea.

    The faithful John was on duty when Father and Mother Meagles
    presented themselves at the wicket towards nightfall. Miss Dorrit
    was not there then, he said; but she had been there in the morning,
    and invariably came in the evening. Mr Clennam was slowly mending;
    and Maggy and Mrs Plornish and Mr Baptist took care of him by
    turns. Miss Dorrit was sure to come back that evening before the
    bell rang. There was the room the Marshal had lent her, up-stairs,
    in which they could wait for her, if they pleased. Mistrustful
    that it might be hazardous to Arthur to see him without
    preparation, Mr Meagles accepted the offer; and they were left shut
    up in the room, looking down through its barred window into the

    The cramped area of the prison had such an effect on Mrs Meagles
    that she began to weep, and such an effect on Mr Meagles that he
    began to gasp for air. He was walking up and down the room,
    panting, and making himself worse by laboriously fanning himself
    with her handkerchief, when he turned towards the opening door.

    'Eh? Good gracious!' said Mr Meagles, 'this is not Miss Dorrit!
    Why, Mother, look! Tattycoram!'

    No other. And in Tattycoram's arms was an iron box some two feet
    square. Such a box had Affery Flintwinch seen, in the first of her
    dreams, going out of the old house in the dead of the night under
    Double's arm. This, Tattycoram put on the ground at her old
    master's feet: this, Tattycoram fell on her knees by, and beat her
    hands upon, crying half in exultation and half in despair, half in
    laughter and half in tears, 'Pardon, dear Master; take me back,
    dear Mistress; here it is!'

    'Tatty!' exclaimed Mr Meagles.

    'What you wanted!' said Tattycoram. 'Here it is! I was put in the
    next room not to see you. I heard you ask her about it, I heard
    her say she hadn't got it, I was there when he left it, and I took
    it at bedtime and brought it away. Here it is!'

    'Why, my girl,' cried Mr Meagles, more breathless than before, 'how
    did you come over?'

    'I came in the boat with you. I was sitting wrapped up at the
    other end. When you took a coach at the wharf, I took another
    coach and followed you here. She never would have given it up
    after what you had said to her about its being wanted; she would
    sooner have sunk it in the sea, or burnt it. But, here it is!'

    The glow and rapture that the girl was in, with her 'Here it is!'

    'She never wanted it to be left, I must say that for her; but he
    left it, and I knew well that after what you said, and after her
    denying it, she never would have given it up. But here it is!
    Dear Master, dear Mistress, take me back again, and give me back
    the dear old name! Let this intercede for me. Here it is!'

    Father and Mother Meagles never deserved their names better than
    when they took the headstrong foundling-girl into their protection

    'Oh! I have been so wretched,' cried Tattycoram, weeping much
    more, 'always so unhappy, and so repentant! I was afraid of her
    from the first time I saw her. I knew she had got a power over me
    through understanding what was bad in me so well. It was a madness
    in me, and she could raise it whenever she liked. I used to think,
    when I got into that state, that people were all against me because
    of my first beginning; and the kinder they were to me, the worse
    fault I found in them. I made it out that they triumphed above me,
    and that they wanted to make me envy them, when I know--when I even
    knew then--that they never thought of such a thing. And my
    beautiful young mistress not so happy as she ought to have been,
    and I gone away from her! Such a brute and a wretch as she must
    think me! But you'll say a word to her for me, and ask her to be
    as forgiving as you two are? For I am not so bad as I was,'
    pleaded Tattycoram; 'I am bad enough, but not so bad as I was,
    indeed. I have had Miss Wade before me all this time, as if it was
    my own self grown ripe--turning everything the wrong way, and
    twisting all good into evil. I have had her before me all this
    time, finding no pleasure in anything but keeping me as miserable,
    suspicious, and tormenting as herself. Not that she had much to
    do, to do that,' cried Tattycoram, in a closing great burst of
    distress, 'for I was as bad as bad could be. I only mean to say,
    that, after what I have gone through, I hope I shall never be quite
    so bad again, and that I shall get better by very slow degrees.
    I'll try very hard. I won't stop at five-and-twenty, sir, I'll
    count five-and-twenty hundred, five-and-twenty thousand!'

    Another opening of the door, and Tattycoram subsided, and Little
    Dorrit came in, and Mr Meagles with pride and joy produced the box,
    and her gentle face was lighted up with grateful happiness and joy.

    The secret was safe now! She could keep her own part of it from
    him; he should never know of her loss; in time to come he should
    know all that was of import to himself; but he should never know
    what concerned her only. That was all passed, all forgiven, all

    'Now, my dear Miss Dorrit,' said Mr Meagles; 'I am a man of
    business--or at least was--and I am going to take my measures
    promptly, in that character. Had I better see Arthur to-night?'

    'I think not to-night. I will go to his room and ascertain how he
    is. But I think it will be better not to see him to-night.'

    'I am much of your opinion, my dear,' said Mr Meagles, 'and
    therefore I have not been any nearer to him than this dismal room.
    Then I shall probably not see him for some little time to come.
    But I'll explain what I mean when you come back.'

    She left the room. Mr Meagles, looking through the bars of the
    window, saw her pass out of the Lodge below him into the prison-
    yard. He said gently, 'Tattycoram, come to me a moment, my good

    She went up to the window.

    'You see that young lady who was here just now--that little, quiet,
    fragile figure passing along there, Tatty? Look. The people stand
    out of the way to let her go by. The men--see the poor, shabby
    fellows--pull off their hats to her quite politely, and now she
    glides in at that doorway. See her, Tattycoram?'

    'Yes, sir.'

    'I have heard tell, Tatty, that she was once regularly called the
    child of this place. She was born here, and lived here many years.

    I can't breathe here. A doleful place to be born and bred in,

    'Yes indeed, sir!'

    'If she had constantly thought of herself, and settled with herself
    that everybody visited this place upon her, turned it against her,
    and cast it at her, she would have led an irritable and probably an
    useless existence. Yet I have heard tell, Tattycoram, that her
    young life has been one of active resignation, goodness, and noble
    service. Shall I tell you what I consider those eyes of hers, that
    were here just now, to have always looked at, to get that

    'Yes, if you please, sir.'

    'Duty, Tattycoram. Begin it early, and do it well; and there is no
    antecedent to it, in any origin or station, that will tell against
    us with the Almighty, or with ourselves.'

    They remained at the window, Mother joining them and pitying the
    prisoners, until she was seen coming back. She was soon in the
    room, and recommended that Arthur, whom she had left calm and
    composed, should not be visited that night.

    'Good!' said Mr Meagles, cheerily. 'I have not a doubt that's
    best. I shall trust my remembrances then, my sweet nurse, in your
    hands, and I well know they couldn't be in better. I am off again
    to-morrow morning.'

    Little Dorrit, surprised, asked him where?

    'My dear,' said Mr Meagles, 'I can't live without breathing. This
    place has taken my breath away, and I shall never get it back again
    until Arthur is out of this place.'

    'How is that a reason for going off again to-morrow morning?'

    'You shall understand,' said Mr Meagles. 'To-night we three will
    put up at a City Hotel. To-morrow morning, Mother and Tattycoram
    will go down to Twickenham, where Mrs Tickit, sitting attended by
    Dr Buchan in the parlour-window, will think them a couple of
    ghosts; and I shall go abroad again for Doyce. We must have Dan
    here. Now, I tell you, my love, it's of no use writing and
    planning and conditionally speculating upon this and that and the
    other, at uncertain intervals and distances; we must have Doyce
    here. I devote myself at daybreak to-morrow morning, to bringing
    Doyce here. It's nothing to me to go and find him. I'm an old
    traveller, and all foreign languages and customs are alike to me--I
    never understand anything about any of 'em. Therefore I can't be
    put to any inconvenience. Go at once I must, it stands to reason;
    because I can't live without breathing freely; and I can't breathe
    freely until Arthur is out of this Marshalsea. I am stifled at the
    present moment, and have scarcely breath enough to say this much,
    and to carry this precious box down-stairs for you.'

    They got into the street as the bell began to ring, Mr Meagles
    carrying the box. Little Dorrit had no conveyance there: which
    rather surprised him. He called a coach for her and she got into
    it, and he placed the box beside her when she was seated. In her
    joy and gratitude she kissed his hand.

    'I don't like that, my dear,' said Mr Meagles. 'It goes against my
    feeling of what's right, that YOU should do homage to ME--at the
    Marshalsea Gate.'

    She bent forward, and kissed his cheek.

    'You remind me of the days,' said Mr Meagles, suddenly drooping--
    'but she's very fond of him, and hides his faults, and thinks that
    no one sees them--and he certainly is well connected and of a very
    good family!'

    It was the only comfort he had in the loss of his daughter, and if
    he made the most of it, who could blame him?
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