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    CHAPTER X

    Anne's Apology

    Marilla said nothing to Matthew about the affair that
    evening; but when Anne proved still refractory the next
    morning an explanation had to be made to account for her
    absence from the breakfast table. Marilla told Matthew
    the whole story, taking pains to impress him with a due
    sense of the enormity of Anne's behavior.

    "It's a good thing Rachel Lynde got a calling down; she's a
    meddlesome old gossip," was Matthew's consolatory rejoinder.

    "Matthew Cuthbert, I'm astonished at you. You know that
    Anne's behavior was dreadful, and yet you take her part!
    I suppose you'll be saying next thing that she oughtn't
    to be punished at all!"

    "Well now--no--not exactly," said Matthew uneasily. I
    reckon she ought to be punished a little. But don't be
    too hard on her, Marilla. Recollect she hasn't ever had
    anyone to teach her right. You're--you're going to give
    her something to eat, aren't you?"

    "When did you ever hear of me starving people into good
    behavior?" demanded Marilla indignantly. "She'll have
    her meals regular, and I'll carry them up to her myself.
    But she'll stay up there until she's willing to apologize
    to Mrs. Lynde, and that's final, Matthew."

    Breakfast, dinner, and supper were very silent meals--for
    Anne still remained obdurate. After each meal Marilla
    carried a well-filled tray to the east gable and brought it
    down later on not noticeably depleted. Matthew eyed its last
    descent with a troubled eye. Had Anne eaten anything at all?

    When Marilla went out that evening to bring the cows
    from the back pasture, Matthew, who had been hanging
    about the barns and watching, slipped into the house with
    the air of a burglar and crept upstairs. As a general thing
    Matthew gravitated between the kitchen and the little
    bedroom off the hall where he slept; once in a while he
    ventured uncomfortably into the parlor or sitting room when
    the minister came to tea. But he had never been upstairs
    in his own house since the spring he helped Marilla paper
    the spare bedroom, and that was four years ago.

    He tiptoed along the hall and stood for several minutes
    outside the door of the east gable before he summoned
    courage to tap on it with his fingers and then open the
    door to peep in.

    Anne was sitting on the yellow chair by the window
    gazing mournfully out into the garden. Very small and
    unhappy she looked, and Matthew's heart smote him.
    He softly closed the door and tiptoed over to her.

    "Anne," he whispered, as if afraid of being overheard,
    "how are you making it, Anne?"

    Anne smiled wanly.

    "Pretty well. I imagine a good deal, and that helps to
    pass the time. Of course, it's rather lonesome. But then,
    I may as well get used to that."

    Anne smiled again, bravely facing the long years of
    solitary imprisonment before her.

    Matthew recollected that he must say what he had come
    to say without loss of time, lest Marilla return prematurely.
    "Well now, Anne, don't you think you'd better do it and
    have it over with?" he whispered. "It'll have to be done
    sooner or later, you know, for Marilla's a dreadful deter-
    mined woman--dreadful determined, Anne. Do it right off,
    I say, and have it over."

    "Do you mean apologize to Mrs. Lynde?"

    "Yes--apologize--that's the very word," said Matthew eagerly.
    "Just smooth it over so to speak. That's what I was trying
    to get at."

    "I suppose I could do it to oblige you," said Anne
    thoughtfully. "It would be true enough to say I am sorry,
    because I AM sorry now. I wasn't a bit sorry last night.
    I was mad clear through, and I stayed mad all night. I know
    I did because I woke up three times and I was just furious
    every time. But this morning it was over. I wasn't in a
    temper anymore--and it left a dreadful sort of goneness,
    too. I felt so ashamed of myself. But I just couldn't think
    of going and telling Mrs. Lynde so. It would be so humili-
    ating. I made up my mind I'd stay shut up here forever
    rather than do that. But still--I'd do anything for you--if
    you really want me to--"

    "Well now, of course I do. It's terrible lonesome
    downstairs without you. Just go and smooth things over--
    that's a good girl."

    "Very well," said Anne resignedly. "I'll tell Marilla as
    soon as she comes in I've repented."

    "That's right--that's right, Anne. But don't tell Marilla I
    said anything about it. She might think I was putting my oar
    in and I promised not to do that."

    "Wild horses won't drag the secret from me," promised Anne
    solemnly. "How would wild horses drag a secret from a
    person anyhow?"

    But Matthew was gone, scared at his own success. He fled
    hastily to the remotest corner of the horse pasture lest
    Marilla should suspect what he had been up to. Marilla herself,
    upon her return to the house, was agreeably surprised to hear a
    plaintive voice calling, "Marilla" over the banisters.

    "Well?" she said, going into the hall.

    "I'm sorry I lost my temper and said rude things, and
    I'm willing to go and tell Mrs. Lynde so."

    "Very well." Marilla's crispness gave no sign of her
    relief. She had been wondering what under the canopy she
    should do if Anne did not give in. "I'll take you down
    after milking."

    Accordingly, after milking, behold Marilla and Anne
    walking down the lane, the former erect and triumphant,
    the latter drooping and dejected. But halfway down Anne's
    dejection vanished as if by enchantment. She lifted her
    head and stepped lightly along, her eyes fixed on the
    sunset sky and an air of subdued exhilaration about her.
    Marilla beheld the change disapprovingly. This was no
    meek penitent such as it behooved her to take into the
    presence of the offended Mrs. Lynde.

    "What are you thinking of, Anne?" she asked sharply.

    "I'm imagining out what I must say to Mrs. Lynde,"
    answered Anne dreamily.

    This was satisfactory--or should have been so. But Marilla
    could not rid herself of the notion that something in her
    scheme of punishment was going askew. Anne had no business
    to look so rapt and radiant.

    Rapt and radiant Anne continued until they were in the
    very presence of Mrs. Lynde, who was sitting knitting by
    her kitchen window. Then the radiance vanished. Mournful
    penitence appeared on every feature. Before a word was
    spoken Anne suddenly went down on her knees before the
    astonished Mrs. Rachel and held out her hands beseechingly.

    "Oh, Mrs. Lynde, I am so extremely sorry," she said
    with a quiver in her voice. "I could never express all
    my sorrow, no, not if I used up a whole dictionary. You
    must just imagine it. I behaved terribly to you--and
    I've disgraced the dear friends, Matthew and Marilla, who
    have let me stay at Green Gables although I'm not a boy.
    I'm a dreadfully wicked and ungrateful girl, and I deserve
    to be punished and cast out by respectable people forever.
    It was very wicked of me to fly into a temper because you
    told me the truth. It WAS the truth; every word you said
    was true. My hair is red and I'm freckled and skinny and
    ugly. What I said to you was true, too, but I shouldn't
    have said it. Oh, Mrs. Lynde, please, please, forgive me.
    If you refuse it will be a lifelong sorrow on a poor little
    orphan girl would you, even if she had a dreadful temper?
    Oh, I am sure you wouldn't. Please say you forgive me,
    Mrs. Lynde."

    Anne clasped her hands together, bowed her head, and
    waited for the word of judgment.

    There was no mistaking her sincerity--it breathed in
    every tone of her voice. Both Marilla and Mrs. Lynde
    recognized its unmistakable ring. But the former under-
    stood in dismay that Anne was actually enjoying her valley
    of humiliation--was reveling in the thoroughness of her
    abasement. Where was the wholesome punishment upon
    which she, Marilla, had plumed herself? Anne had turned
    it into a species of positive pleasure.

    Good Mrs. Lynde, not being overburdened with perception,
    did not see this. She only perceived that Anne had
    made a very thorough apology and all resentment vanished
    from her kindly, if somewhat officious, heart.

    "There, there, get up, child," she said heartily. "Of course
    I forgive you. I guess I was a little too hard on you,
    anyway. But I'm such an outspoken person. You just mustn't
    mind me, that's what. It can't be denied your hair is
    terrible red; but I knew a girl once--went to school with
    her, in fact--whose hair was every mite as red as yours
    when she was young, but when she grew up it darkened
    to a real handsome auburn. I wouldn't be a mite surprised
    if yours did, too--not a mite."

    "Oh, Mrs. Lynde!" Anne drew a long breath as she rose
    to her feet. "You have given me a hope. I shall always feel
    that you are a benefactor. Oh, I could endure anything if I
    only thought my hair would be a handsome auburn when I
    grew up. It would be so much easier to be good if one's
    hair was a handsome auburn, don't you think? And now
    may I go out into your garden and sit on that bench under
    the apple-trees while you and Marilla are talking? There is
    so much more scope for imagination out there."

    "Laws, yes, run along, child. And you can pick a bouquet
    of them white June lilies over in the corner if you like."

    As the door closed behind Anne Mrs. Lynde got briskly
    up to light a lamp.

    "She's a real odd little thing. Take this chair, Marilla;
    it's easier than the one you've got; I just keep that for the
    hired boy to sit on. Yes, she certainly is an odd child,
    but there is something kind of taking about her after all.
    I don't feel so surprised at you and Matthew keeping her as
    I did--nor so sorry for you, either. She may turn out all
    right. Of course, she has a queer way of expressing herself--
    a little too--well, too kind of forcible, you know; but
    she'll likely get over that now that she's come to live among
    civilized folks. And then, her temper's pretty quick, I
    guess; but there's one comfort, a child that has a quick
    temper, just blaze up and cool down, ain't never likely to
    be sly or deceitful. Preserve me from a sly child, that's
    what. On the whole, Marilla, I kind of like her."

    When Marilla went home Anne came out of the fragrant twilight
    of the orchard with a sheaf of white narcissi in her hands.

    "I apologized pretty well, didn't I?" she said proudly as
    they went down the lane. "I thought since I had to do it
    I might as well do it thoroughly."

    "You did it thoroughly, all right enough," was Marilla's
    comment. Marilla was dismayed at finding herself inclined
    to laugh over the recollection. She had also an uneasy
    feeling that she ought to scold Anne for apologizing so well;
    but then, that was ridiculous! She compromised with her
    conscience by saying severely:

    "I hope you won't have occasion to make many more such
    apologies. I hope you'll try to control your temper now, Anne."

    "That wouldn't be so hard if people wouldn't twit me about
    my looks," said Anne with a sigh. "I don't get cross about
    other things; but I'm SO tired of being twitted about my hair
    and it just makes me boil right over. Do you suppose
    my hair will really be a handsome auburn when I grow up?"

    "You shouldn't think so much about your looks, Anne. I'm
    afraid you are a very vain little girl."

    "How can I be vain when I know I'm homely?" protested
    Anne. "I love pretty things; and I hate to look in
    the glass and see something that isn't pretty. It makes me
    feel so sorrowful--just as I feel when I look at any ugly
    thing. I pity it because it isn't beautiful."

    "Handsome is as handsome does," quoted Marilla.
    "I've had that said to me before, but I have my doubts
    about it," remarked skeptical Anne, sniffing at her narcissi.
    "Oh, aren't these flowers sweet! It was lovely of Mrs.
    Lynde to give them to me. I have no hard feelings against
    Mrs. Lynde now. It gives you a lovely, comfortable feeling
    to apologize and be forgiven, doesn't it? Aren't the stars
    bright tonight? If you could live in a star, which one would
    you pick? I'd like that lovely clear big one away over there
    above that dark hill."

    "Anne, do hold your tongue." said Marilla, thoroughly
    worn out trying to follow the gyrations of Anne's thoughts.

    Anne said no more until they turned into their own lane.
    A little gypsy wind came down it to meet them, laden
    with the spicy perfume of young dew-wet ferns. Far up
    in the shadows a cheerful light gleamed out through the
    trees from the kitchen at Green Gables. Anne suddenly
    came close to Marilla and slipped her hand into the older
    woman's hard palm.

    "It's lovely to be going home and know it's home," she said.
    "I love Green Gables already, and I never loved any place before.
    No place ever seemed like home. Oh, Marilla, I'm so happy.
    I could pray right now and not find it a bit hard."

    Something warm and pleasant welled up in Marilla's heart
    at touch of that thin little hand in her own--a throb
    of the maternity she had missed, perhaps. Its very
    unaccustomedness and sweetness disturbed her. She
    hastened to restore her sensations to their normal
    calm by inculcating a moral.

    "If you'll be a good girl you'll always be happy, Anne.
    And you should never find it hard to say your prayers."

    "Saying one's prayers isn't exactly the same thing as praying,"
    said Anne meditatively. "But I'm going to imagine that I'm
    the wind that is blowing up there in those tree tops. When I
    get tired of the trees I'll imagine I'm gently waving down here
    in the ferns--and then I'll fly over to Mrs. Lynde's garden and
    set the flowers dancing--and then I'll go with one great swoop
    over the clover field--and then I'll blow over the Lake of
    Shining Waters and ripple it all up into little sparkling waves.
    Oh, there's so much scope for imagination in a wind! So I'll not
    talk any more just now, Marilla."

    "Thanks be to goodness for that," breathed Marilla in
    devout relief.
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